fretting about the progress of my fyp, have to tackle the post grad soon. otherwise nothing will ever start.

tired after hj's party. didn't feel as enthusiastic about it as i thought i would, but it still wasn't too bad. could tell hj put quite a bit of thought into planning.

a funeral is one occasion to bring everyone together. but it's so sad to realise that no one else ever thought to organise a gathering just to bring the family together. got to wait till now, to see just how much all the uncles have aged, how much the cousins have changed, how much the nephews have grown. i am saddened that i probably would have to search hard for a hint of recognition in the faces of the relatives i chance upon in the street, and then search my distant memory for the names.

the worst is that there is nothing to say, cause so much time has passed that we can't even pretend to know what's going on in each other's lives. and to think we used to play together, some 14 years ago.